Stand Still

I stand still

because if I move, I think

think of a future yet to exist

think thoughts, in responses to conversations yet to be had.

I listen to the cicadas mimic the sound of the sea

I sit beside myself.

The sun filtering through the branches above

the leaves dancing as they too stand still

taking in the present moment.

We are not lost,

because life is not meant to be planned out.

Life is meant to be experienced

the pain, the disappointment, the self doubt.

The world will show us who we are by how we react to those emotions

and when we understand that we are not them

but only meant to feel them, can we freely step into our journey.

So I stand still,

giving myself permission

to be in this moment, to feel this pain but also joy

Learning from the trees that have stood before I was thought

and will stand long after I am gone.